Archive for September, 2010

It’s 4:37 in the a.m. . .

Posted in Uncategorized on September 19, 2010 by theloathinglibertarian

I’m up way too late. It’s not a surprise. I was out tonight and caught the bug to get a buzz. Well, that would have been nice, but I ended up taking several cab rides. The last one took me 45 minutes to catch.

I was out with a friend and his girlfriend. I hadnt seen him in around four years, and I figured it’d be a good time to catch up. His girlfriend however, didnt want me to stay at her place and I had to get back home. I stayed out till 3:3o a.m. and wasnt drunk, which breaks a rule of mine. I dont like to stay out that late if i dont catch a buzz, so I decided to fix that problem.

It’s now 4:41 a.m. and im still up. Jim Morrison comes through the headphones as I try to cleanse my Doors of perception. I cant help but feeling anxiety as it’s so late even though I have nothing to do tomorrow. I feel there is always something to acccomplish. I dont know if it was my upbringing or this desire to do something great. Nonetheless, it still creeps up on me and stays longer than I’d like.

Overall, I’d say the weekend was a waste except for the Improv show and the meager blog posts. I guess I have one more day to make something out of it.

The Doors have become a fascination of mine of late. Jim, seems to hit your head like something that was meant to be there from the beginning, but you are only discovering for the first time, now. He shared my worldview. I believe in existence being the reason of being. Everything is meaningless, until we figure out what we were given in the way of natural ability.

To good times riches and sons of bitches,

Im going to bed.

“You know the day destroys the night, the night divides the day, tried to run, tried to hide, break on through to the otherside” – Jim Morrison



Posted in Journal with tags , , , , on September 18, 2010 by theloathinglibertarian

Looks like I’m gonna need to find a place to shit. Being in the city never permits for a convenent time to do that. The bathrooms are either too small or non existent.

I’m at the field in Cambridge waiting for my improv show. The call time is an hour before hand, which I’ve never figured out. It’s improv. I want to go right on, off the cuff, in the moment. Preparation makes me uncomfortable.

When the curtain goes up, I want to be in the moment. In preparation, I’m listening to the Doors. If cleansing my perception where easy, I’d be in a constant state of improv and probably a lot happier.

It maybe my last show for a while. My group has dissolved and I’ve moved onto some film projects, only time will tell.

Off to find a bathroom. . .

Music n Beer

Posted in Journal with tags , , , on September 16, 2010 by theloathinglibertarian

I’m sitting in Coogan’s an Irish Pub in Boston trying to catch a buzz before going to see Ladies and Gentlemen the Rolling Stones. I have work tomorrow so the intake of alcohol will be some what limited but not as much as my job would like.
Something about a buzz, good music, and rock n roll inspires me. I cant put a finger on it but I think it’s the freedom feeling I get. That slight, I don’t give a fuck that just sets you loose.
I’m on my way to see the Stones, which admittedly I missed during their prime. However, I’m grasping at what I can of a better time. The movie is from the Exile on Main Street tour. Probably, the sexing best album they put out.
I’m flying solo as I’m a man born in a generation I wasn’t meant to live in. Catching a buzz, good music, and writing is what my life has become or what I want it to become.

Side note: it’s amazing how hot everyone gets and interesting everyone is with a few beers.

Joe Cocker cover in the bar, a good sign.

“I cant get no satisfaction” – the Rolling Stones

The Loathing Libertarian

Posted in Journal with tags , , , , on September 13, 2010 by theloathinglibertarian

The Loathing Libertarian. The words encompass a lot but show some sort of focus. I am somewhat of a libertarian politically, but for purposes of the blog I’d say it’s more about a lifestyle.
I am someone who believes in freedom and as much freedom as you can have while getting right up to the edge and sometimes occasionally going over it. I strive to control my time and life direction with minimal interference. I love the arts and freedom of expression. Occasionally, I like to dabble in some adult substances. These are limited at the moment due to prior engagements, but soon enough.
I am loathing because I feel America peaked 40 years ago and I’m only 27, which means, I will never know anything better than right now. It can only get worse; in the sense, that people want more and more safety and are becoming more and more dumb. Art is dying along with the ability to live as the individual sees fit.
The aim of this blog will be to discuss some of my views on life as well as an outlet for artistic expression. It will be a place to find my voice along with a place to explore the journey of trying to become a writer. I’d like to include some poetry, journals, and short stories. In the process, I’d like to streamline a focus for the blog and get followers and maybe venture into other contributors.
This will be a forum for unadulterated expression, an attempt at Gonzo. Take it or leave it.

“Let’s just say I was testing the bounds of reality. I was curious to see what would happen. That’s all it was: curiosity.” – Jim Morrison

Hello world!

Posted in Poetry on September 10, 2010 by theloathinglibertarian

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